Why do get disappointed with people? What is expectation and how does it control and manipulate our lives? What is this shield that the ego uses so skillfully and from what imagined fear is it giving us the illusion of being our protector? Running from one situation to another, from one relationship to another, from one place to another, never stopping long enough to really look at our lives to see what the universe is telling us and how to take advantage of what the universe is offering us. We live in a society that teaches us that sitting still is a waste of time…so we move, we dismantle, we ‘start all over’, we run run run.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
I read a story a while ago that has remained in the back chamber of my mind but lately when I sit down for morning meditation, the words of that story have been surfacing to haunt me. So this morning I really looked at this story and I allowed the words to seep into my consciousness until a light shown through them. The story goes something like this: a head monk was about to do his daily meditation but he felt thirsty so he asked his disciples to fetch him a glass of water. By the time they returned, the head monk had fallen into a deep meditation…..so deep that he came out of it 30 years later. And the first thing that came to his mind was his thirst and he wondered why his disciples had not yet brought him the glass of water.
Mediation is not about staying in one place. The mind must not become dull. If meditation is to be real, it must be a 24-hour affair. How can one meditate and not be connected to the world around him? Is meditation a halting of the mind? That cannot be. Meditation is alive, flowing, the mind does not stop, the neurons continue to send signals to itself and to the rest of the body. That is its job. And it is clear that a quiet mind is not a stagnant or dull mind. Meditation is awareness and that happens with the eyes wide open, the mind wide open, and above all the heart wide open. Although, I do find sitting down in quiet, ‘dark’ meditation relaxing and, at times, rejuvenating, I wonder…how can I meditate and remain in complete touch with the life around me all the time. What is the point of meditating, quieting my mind, if as soon as I ‘come out of’ the meditative state, my mind is in the same chaotic mess it was in before? I do not want to ask for the same glass of water 30 years later. So, it seems to me that since meditation is awareness, and the awareness must be constant, then meditation must be in such a way that one is always meditating. So the way one meditates changes. It is no longer the ‘I will sit down and quiet my mind, etc, etc,’ it is ‘I will be aware of everything inside and outside of myself all the time.’ It can only be this way, otherwise it is like a game that one starts and finishes. We are not machines to be turned on and off.
So is there any point in sitting down for a quiet, in-depth meditation? Yes, I believe there is. It is a time when we can really look at a question, we can place a situation at the center of our being and search through it until we see it from all sides, until the light shines through it and the question inevitably disappears. One never knows how long the inquiry will last nor how long it will take for the light to shine through and dissolve the question….hours, days, months, years….who know? But I can guarantee that it eventually does.
Saturday, March 22, 2014
In yoga, we often discuss the theme of duality and how to become one, unique, through a transformation of the body and the mind. But this morning it occurred to me that all in Nature, all in life is a balance through the duality, and not fighting or questioning the duality. It is not through the annihilation of the so-called opposing forces but a blend, a synergy, an amalgamation of these forces that a bond, a unity can be created. So in both energies, all energies are present. By eliminating one or the other, we polarize the energies, which only makes the unity impossible. How can a match create a flame if we keep the match far from the wood? To annihilate or ignore one energy is a slow death, a suicide, because the one part cannot exist on its own.